Everything is Heavy

What is even happening right now?!? Honestly, people. I don’t know what I can even say on this platform that seems to bring any kind of comfort or peace for that matter. There is way too much going on across the globe. As an already anxious individual, my brain is possibly exploding. Haven’t had an MRI to confirm that yet. I know that my heart is racing. And some days I simply wake up anxious. I’m having nightmares more often and not sleeping great. Everything is just very heavy right now.

I have been called horrible things for simply wishing big pharma would open up and discuss other effective treatment options for the big C word, and make them available to doctors and nurses… to save more human lives. I guess that’s a bad thing? I’ve been watching our leaders ignore the fact that we have American citizens trapped in a country full of the tweeting Taliban army…yep they still have Twitter. Our military is dying over there. Our citizens are dying. Ya’ll I just can’t anymore. It’s so much. It’s painful to watch. And this country is still so stinking divided over everything. What is that saying again? Oh yes… “United we stand, divided we fall.” Yikes!

If you don’t see eye to eye with someone, that’s okay. We can disagree and still be kind to one another! Most humans on this earth want health and wellness. But we may not have the exact same views on how to get there. And that’s okay. This is all still new! We shouldn’t be calling people ugly names because they may want to explore a different road to healing than you do. Ultimately we want the same outcome I believe. But we must understand that no two human bodies are exactly alike. So let’s open our minds to hearing about other possibly wonderful breakthrough aid to help us in this health crisis instead of being so divided over it. Maybe the government’s solution isn’t the ONLY one out there. Maybe there are (gasp) several available and effective treatment options out there and we have to choose which one is right for our personal health and wellness. Remember, none of us have the same bodies, the same health history, the same DNA. This may never be a one size fits all scenario. Or in this case, one thing heals all.

Let’s pray for our fellow Americans to make it out alive of Afghanistan right now. The fact that there are American pastors willing and ready to see Jesus in a matter of days breaks me. They want protection for their families, their congregation. But they are planning to see their Savior soon. What bravery. Courage. I hope I can be like this one day. They are heroes. I am praying for their lives. For the lives of SO many in that country. Americans and Afghans alike. If this crisis doesn’t bring us to our knees, what will?

Please pray.

I have personally spoken to several nurses over these last few weeks. These people were heroes last year. Now they are people possibly losing their jobs over a personal health choice. (And I’ve been called a liar for this already so go look up Houston TX if you don’t believe me. The number was somewhere around 150.) But the threat is out there. We need these brave men and women in our healthcare system! We cannot afford to lose them! I cannot imagine what they’ve been through this past year. I appreciate each and every one of them. I know they are exhausted and that is an understatement. Let’s treat all of them with dignity and respect. They have families to provide for too. And they’ve literally put their lives on the line for us. Thank you doesn’t seem sufficient. And firing them is an injustice.

I am sorry if you have been lead to believe that our governing powers want what is best for us at all times. I used to be that person. I used to think that the people in power had my back. That they were looking out for me. And some are! Many are not. Look back in the Bible if you want proof of other corrupt government/leaders. Infanticide was happening way back then. Leaders like Saul were chasing good people like David, trying to kill them. Seriously. But we shake our heads and say no, that can’t happen today. We are so evolved and holy now. Right?!? Hmmmm….Jesus is the ONLY one who can save you, friends. Our worldly leaders may always be swayed by the mighty dollar or the perception of power and authority. It is part of our sin nature. Just because they lead the country doesn’t make them exempt from these temptations.

I’m going out on a huge limb to write this as it is totally different than my normal posts. I always fear the backlash and the name calling as that has already happened to me online for stating my opinions and sharing information that doesn’t align with the current narrative. My word for the year has been “Bold” and I have been in prayer about what to share and what to keep to myself. Haha! But all of these words are my own. Not my husband’s, not my parents. Mine. If you don’t agree with me, I’m okay with that. In fact, we can still be friends. I know. Shocking. I heard from a friend this week who told me he has lost so many dear friends over his viewpoints on certain current topics. Did you know that you can be friends with people you don’t agree with? But if you cross the boundary of being cruel then expect those friends to step aside because we literally can’t deal with any more hatred right now. We are doing nothing by fighting with one another online and behind our tablets. We all should be on our knees. Begging the Lord for His mercy and peace. For healing and becoming more unified. We could band together and uplift one another in prayer! That would do a lot more good right now than arguing.

I’ve been listening to a beautiful song called “Peace” lately. It’s by “Bethel Music” and “We the Kingdom.” Ya’ll. Put your headphones on, and take a listen. I know I need this song in my life right now. I thought maybe you would too. I will leave you with a verse and the lyrics to this song. Because even though there is a ton of scary stuff going on, Christ still sits on the throne. And we have direct access to Him. Direct access to the God of the Universe! If that’s not amazing, I don’t know what is. He’s a loving Father. He hears us. He listens to us. He wants to spend time with us! I wouldn’t be here today if it wasn’t for Him. And I ask Him daily for His peace. So I know everything is heavy right now. Take a deep breath. Read this scripture verse and go listen to that song. And remember the God of the Universe reigns.

John 16:33 says, “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

Here are the lyrics to “Peace”:

When my mind is like a battlefield
And my heart is overcome by fear
And hope seems like a ship that’s lost at sea

My enemies on every side
And I’m tempted to run and hide
Your gentle whisper reaches out to me

Peace
Holds me when I’m broken
Sweet peace
That passes understanding
When the whole wide world is crashing down
I fall to my knees
And breathe in
Your peace

Fiery arrows whistling
The terror of the night sets in
But I can feel Your angels all around

I am resting underneath
The shelter of Your mighty wings
Your promises are where my hope is found
All my hope, yeah

Peace
Holds me when I’m broken
Sweet peace
That passes understanding
When the whole wide world is crashing down
I fall to my knees
And breathe in
Your peace

I remember who You are
You’re the God who’s never far
So I will not be afraid
God, You always keep me safe in Your arms

I remember who You are
You’re the God who’s never far
So I will not be afraid
God, You always, You always keep me safe

You give me peace
That holds me when I’m broken
Sweet peace
That passes understanding
When the whole wide world is crashing down
I fall to my knees
And breathe in

I breathe You, I breathe You in
Take a deep breath and be still
And know that You are God alone